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Finally!
After two years of hiding and being illegal,
I’m now able to tell the world that i am in a relationship, hehe! whew!
It’s actually very funny to think that I actually had to hide that fact (from my family) for two long years, hahha (considering my age).
but i guess that’s just how it was supposed to be since my family is really just being protective of me.
Luckily, the one I chose was worthy to be chosen.
He is worth the risk and I thank Allah for giving him to me as my blessing.
Thank you Allah for guiding me in choosing who to love and for choosing him to love me unconditionally.
I feel very happy now that I am no longer keeping a big secret (which is my source of blissfulness) to my family.
oh…. What a relief!
Indeed, “Open Relationship” is the key to a harmonious, trustful and loving family-i can guarantee you that!
hehhe!
Stay happy and in love people…(^^,)
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CLEOPATRA
March 27, 2008-September 7, 2008
Mommy misses you so much…
i hope you are happy now… wherever you are…
our memories would forever stay in my heart as long as i live…
no one can ever take your place…
I miss you so much cleo!
Mommy loves you so much!
September 02, 2007, my parents made a surprise visit here in Baguio
to check out on me and my sister since we just shifted from hillside to green valley. Indeed, it was a surprise attack coming from my parents that’s why I found it really tricky that they just pop here without even notifying us before hand. It seems to me and my sister that they would want to “caught us in the act” in whatever it is that we are doing. At first, I felt so bad and annoyed because it seems to me that they do not trust me and my sister so much that they would resort in giving us a bolt from the blue visit. I’ve been behaving reluctantly as I continue cleaning our new house until I realized that it has been a month ago since I last saw them. My mom and dad said that they had to sneak out of our house in manila just to be here with us. Meaning to say that they hided it from all of the people in our house there including to my little sisters. My mom said that they would all want to come here in Baguio to see me and neo that they would all be absent for their Monday and Tuesday classes. Then suddenly, a thought crossed my mind. I wondered how my mom and dad feel about the fact that 3 out of their 6 children are now living away from them. Unexpectedly, I remembered how it was before when I was still in Manila together with my siblings and parents. We used to be so happy. All of us in one home is what makes our house a home, a big happy family bounded by love and close family ties. But reality strikes, sooner or later we have to go away from our comfort zone. It was just too bad that it happened so soon. My brother is the first one to go away for he had to study in a military academy which is so far from home. It took us so long before we were able to accept and adjust to this reality. After 2 years, it was my turn to live separately here in Baguio. It had been really hard for me to live alone for I’ve never experienced being alone before. For some reasons, my heart had been filled with bitterness for my family which used to be full of love. Perhaps its was because of the loneliness I’ve felt but now I realize that it was an irrational anger due to my ignorance and selfishness before. Another 2 years have passed, and it’s now my younger sister neole’s time to go to college. Luckily, she entered the same university as to where I am. I admit that I’ve been happier since she came because I finally have a family here in Baguio. What I didn’t notice was the pain that my parents are feeling because we are now “adults” and no longer their “babies” who used to be so dependent from them. According to my dad, my mom had always been crying whenever she enters our room in manila. She must have missed me, neo and my brother so much that’s why just the thought of us brings her to tears. I have been so insensitive to her and to my family by being so selfish. All I ever thought about is how I feel. I never thought that they are hurting just the same, even much more than me. "Empty nest syndrome" as we call it in Psychology is what my parents is experiencing now. Sadly, it took me all these years to grow up and finally understand complicated things like this. Now I know how they feel. I finally realized that they are sacrificing so much for our welfare. I guess that’s their way of showing their unconditional love. Parents are indeed God’s wonderful gift. They are my model and my source of inspiration. And for them, I would do every thing to graduate in UP so that their sacrifices are worthy. Snapping back to reality, I hurriedly hug and kissed them to express my love for them and how much I missed them. My reluctant face finally become a happy face just like before. For sure, it made them happy.
that was the last time i saw them.. it’s been 3 months that i haven’t been home.. now i really wanna go home…
